Well, i finally decided enough of the crap!!!! I have enlisted the help of a sports nutritionist and plan to use the next 3 months to work out what my body can handle in the way of food, and how i can get to a desired level of body fat and maintain it there without having to struggle. My next goal of competition is October and, although i didn't mind the pre comp diet too much, it was boring and thee should be more to life than chicken,tuna and veggies. I also want to come out the other side of competition with better emotions and eating habits, so i don't have to go through all this again.
For the first 2 weeks of my plan, i am on a sugar detox, purging my body of sugar, yeast, bacteria you name it, it is out of here. Really simple diet, i can eat it if it:
1) flies
2) swims
3) runs
4) is a green veggies
5) is an essential fat.
How hard can that be??? and one of the best parts of it, i am allowed to eat 1 tsp of nut butter, finally, i am allowed to eat peanut butter out of the jar and not feel bad about it!!!
I have followed this protocol for 5 days so far and have decreased by 2kg which is great, i will do measurements at the end of the 2 weeks to see how much body fat has melted away with the sugar and other bad things!
It has left me feeling cleaner, not only in body, but in mind aswell, i have more clarity and more energy and generally feel happier about myself which is great.
I am pretty much healed from surgery now, i have been working out the past couple of weeks, but not hard, just a couple of full body workouts. This week i have been able to get back into training hard which has been great, it feels so much better to be able to walk into a gym and work hard, i am just not very good at doing "light" workouts!
Mind you, the legs are really feeling the heat after yesturdays workout, and i am pretty sure the upper body will feel the same tomorrow! Yes, that feeling of being alive again, i think i have missed it!!!
Now i am back in the swing of things with training, i will endeavour to blog more and keep up to date with goals and progress, who knows, may even get around to adding some photos every once in a while!!!!
Wendy
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Friday, May 9, 2008
Haven't blogged for a while, I am sure there is much to chat up on.
Lets get the end of post comp out of the way first. We had a workshop a week ago, i planned to "shred" the two weeks before, yep, that lasted 4 days. How did i manage 12 weeks? It seems without the deadline of a competition date ahead, food is a problem, the switch in my head which stopped me from cheating on my plan was switched off and there was no way known that i could control what goes in my mouth. Not good for the mind, body or soul.
In my head, all my problems with food/weight etc would be solved once i got on stage, for some reason, i thought that once i made it up there, i would be transformed into this "athlete" who no longer had any issues relating to food, i dreamt i would remain in good shape and not put on any fat, i would be perfect (in my mind). Well hello and welcome to the real world!! I am still Me!!! i still eat when i am bored, sad, lonely, hungry, PMT etc all the same reason why I ate before. The weeks post comp, i watched myself slip back into old habits and have watched my old body catch up to me again. Then the mind beating starts, I eat bad and feel bad about myself, because i feel bad about myself i eat more comfort foods and so the spiral begins.
Interestingly, i can remember how great i felt pre competition with all the clean healthy food, how clear my mind was and how i enjoyed my body, but sadly even those thougts were not enough to pull me out of the spiral.
The ANB workshop was a good eye opener for me, i nearly didn't go as i was too embarrassed by my lack of control and self doubts, but i am pleased i went. I was given nothing but positive feedback which was very encouraging and I left knowing that all my thoughs, feelings, cravings, dilemas etc were all normal and in fact were shared by a few other competitors there. The weight gain i have had over the weeks is to be congratulated (only 5kg for me, whereas others have put on 9+)and certainly noting to be ashamed about.
I left feeling renewed!
This week i have had breast surgery so am home recovering and getting used to the new profile! My plan for my two weeks home is to get moving more, increase the walking again (not hard to increase from nothing!!) and to eat well. On my fridge is a reminder that clean eating = faster healing this has worked well for the past 2 days with no desire to cheat and eat comfort foods which i am pleased about, just a simple change of words makes it easier, focusing on the positive side of clean food (faster healing) rather than the painful side of clean food (weight loss.. yes to our minds it is a loss which is a negative!)
I have joined a new gym, which although is 15mins away, i think will be a very wise move for me, they have already offered my a sponsorship and training sessions to help me on the way to Octobers comp, so that is very positive. All i need to do is healed up quickly so i can get back into training!!
Hope you will all still join me along my way, i will be adding a couple of links to other peoples blogs, so once you see those, please drop in, say hi and encourage other in their journeys!
Wendy
Lets get the end of post comp out of the way first. We had a workshop a week ago, i planned to "shred" the two weeks before, yep, that lasted 4 days. How did i manage 12 weeks? It seems without the deadline of a competition date ahead, food is a problem, the switch in my head which stopped me from cheating on my plan was switched off and there was no way known that i could control what goes in my mouth. Not good for the mind, body or soul.
In my head, all my problems with food/weight etc would be solved once i got on stage, for some reason, i thought that once i made it up there, i would be transformed into this "athlete" who no longer had any issues relating to food, i dreamt i would remain in good shape and not put on any fat, i would be perfect (in my mind). Well hello and welcome to the real world!! I am still Me!!! i still eat when i am bored, sad, lonely, hungry, PMT etc all the same reason why I ate before. The weeks post comp, i watched myself slip back into old habits and have watched my old body catch up to me again. Then the mind beating starts, I eat bad and feel bad about myself, because i feel bad about myself i eat more comfort foods and so the spiral begins.
Interestingly, i can remember how great i felt pre competition with all the clean healthy food, how clear my mind was and how i enjoyed my body, but sadly even those thougts were not enough to pull me out of the spiral.
The ANB workshop was a good eye opener for me, i nearly didn't go as i was too embarrassed by my lack of control and self doubts, but i am pleased i went. I was given nothing but positive feedback which was very encouraging and I left knowing that all my thoughs, feelings, cravings, dilemas etc were all normal and in fact were shared by a few other competitors there. The weight gain i have had over the weeks is to be congratulated (only 5kg for me, whereas others have put on 9+)and certainly noting to be ashamed about.
I left feeling renewed!
This week i have had breast surgery so am home recovering and getting used to the new profile! My plan for my two weeks home is to get moving more, increase the walking again (not hard to increase from nothing!!) and to eat well. On my fridge is a reminder that clean eating = faster healing this has worked well for the past 2 days with no desire to cheat and eat comfort foods which i am pleased about, just a simple change of words makes it easier, focusing on the positive side of clean food (faster healing) rather than the painful side of clean food (weight loss.. yes to our minds it is a loss which is a negative!)
I have joined a new gym, which although is 15mins away, i think will be a very wise move for me, they have already offered my a sponsorship and training sessions to help me on the way to Octobers comp, so that is very positive. All i need to do is healed up quickly so i can get back into training!!
Hope you will all still join me along my way, i will be adding a couple of links to other peoples blogs, so once you see those, please drop in, say hi and encourage other in their journeys!
Wendy
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