focus, balance and sanity

Well, 2 weeks post comp now and i think i have had enough of eating all the things i shouldn't. My body is not liking me at the moment and is reacting to all the processed carbs by swelling up. If i want to keep a flat stomach, i need to banish the bad carbs!

So, as of tomorrow, a new lifestyle starts! It is one of clean living, which will see my body work in harmony with my food. There will be no cravings, no bloating, clear thinking and a well balanced body! (ahhh, the dreams!!) of course there will be cravings, i am female after all, but i will learn how to manage them and to satisfy them with clean foods.

There are no more comps for me until i am satisfied i have increased my muscle mass enough and decreased my body fat enough, there is no point getting on stage looking the same as i have done this year. My goal is to compete at the All Females in July 2009 and then ANB Oct 2009. So this gives me 9 months to balance and grow!

Atleast it has only taken me 2 weeks to regain composure and control this time, unlike the 3 months after my first comp! I know the body i want to see in the mirror and i know what i have to do/eat to maintain it, all i have to do know is accept that this is the way i have to live/eat and do it!

Currently sitting at about 16% BF and about 65kg, this is going to decrease to about 12%BF and this will be my new "normal", am guessing the weight will come down to about 60kg, but who care what the scales say if you are happy with the way you look and feel!

so there we are new goals written down in black and white:

By 22nd December 2009 my bodyfat percentage will be 12%. I will have balanced out my body and established an eating plan that allow me to maintain this level of BF whilst keeping my sanity! I will have a flat stomach as a result of the foods i have been eating, i wil be working with my body and not against it.

ANB Vics Oct 2008

well, all over and done with!

Placed 6th in my division, which was no surprise, I was in the same class as a couple of girls who have a list of achievements to their names.

My goal was to make it on stage and hopefully look better than March, i made it up, in a well made bikini with great shoes, so that was a start. After all the training i have done, i am sure i had more muscle, not that it looked like it compared with the others!!

I am not surprised or dissappointed with my results as i really got out what i had put in. The whole way through i doubted myself and sabotaged myself, i trained hard, but didn't diet as hard as i should have and it showed on the day. I didn't come in as lean and hard as March for whatever reason, and i must admit, something went wrong with my legs!! Strange as my hips are smaller than they have ever been, and yet i looked very bottom heavy! Must change my routine to "fat bottomed girls" next time!

Anyway, i am glad i made it up on stage again, i did get a better feeling of what is needed to make it up there this time around, if i ever want to take home a trophey, i need to work at it and be consistent. I need clean food year round and no lapsing into former habits! saying that, finding it a challenge to stay lean and green with food at the moment, there is so much yummy stuff out there which i have not tasted for weeks!

My current goal is to be more creative with food, if we have to live like this, then i need more variety and freedom with my food, it can't all be plain meat and veggies/salad. Made some great lamb kebabs last night, simple, easy and very tasty.... why haven't i done that before.

So, whilst enjoying my new training program, designed to layer on the muscle, i am also going to enjoy the process of cooking and eating great tasting food and result to plain chicken/veggies only in an emergency. So if there are any good cooks out there with great recipes.........